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I had a dream about my ex’s mother the other night. The dream was so clear that almost like real.
It has been more than 10 years since the last time I had contacted with her. It is so weird for me to have this dream.

Hi NN,
Love the photos! You look exactly how I expected: Kind and nice! And you and your sons look like a happy family!
I used to have a dog named Maggie back when I was in college. She past away old and I still miss her. When I saw your dog's name Maggie, I thought of her immediately!
When I was living in Ohio, I had a German shepher named McGee. I named him after the character McGee in NCIS, which is one of my favoiate TV show back then. McGee is a good dog, and so is NCIS, a good show! Too bad I did not have much chance watching it anymore due to Netflix does not carry this show.
Speaking of TV shows, I just don't understand why there would be so many "chanels"? Netflix, Disney Chanel, ABC Chanel, HBO, Apple TV... I just can't buy them all! I really wish someone could just talk to them and come to an "integration chanel" so that I can pick whatever show I like without limitation!
Just so you know, I practice my English based on watching American TV shows! NCIS, Criminal Minds, Law & Order, For the People, CSI Miami... those are my favorites. Now I am watching "Suits" on Netflix because there are many cute guys in the show LOL!
We are going to have a long weekend, as you may already know. 4 days straght! I can't wait to have a break from everything! No work, no class, just being lazy and playing couch potato! In fact, we will spend one day on house hunting and one day for a small trip. And my husband will go visit his family for another day but I am not going, so that means I will at least have two days of no plan. Good for me!
Best,
Rachel

You have doubts about yourself. All the mean words tear your heart apart. You feel worthless and meaningless.
That’s normal.

I think I have anxiety issue and I need a professional help.
My work stress was too high. It gets to a point that I can break anytime.

If I want to choose a method to make you pay, the best one is to make you suffer the same pain that was on me, and make you feel extremely guilty and regret and hopeless.
Just wait and I will make it come true!

Sometimes when I think I have got everything under control, at the same moment bad things must happened for no reason.
Maybe I just don’t deserve to have a peaceful happy life!

5 new products development review meeting done tonight!!! I am proud of myself!
This month I have completed at least 10 new products review and it has become my new record!

I still remember my fist thunderstorm in Ohio in 2004 summer. I have never experienced a thunderstorm like this: constantly thunder so loudly along with scary wind sound. At that time I was living in an apartment in Findlay all by myself. I crowded at the corner of my bed and covered my ears with my hands every time when I heard thunder. My heart beat was so fast and I felt I was living in a horror movie. I was so frightened. I had just been to the US for a couple of weeks and I had no elsewhere to go. So I looked up my poor contact book trying to see if I can find any help, and I saw a phone number of my classmate, Ning, who is from Thailand and living with an American family. I have been to her house and met her host-mother for only one time, and I was not sure whether she would answer my call since I have just known her for a few days. Surprisely, she answered my call. I explained that I was so frightened by the thunderstorm and I felt so alone. I asked if she could just stay on the phone with me and don't hang up. I think at that moment my voice sounded terrified. She immediately said of course and she tried to calm me down. Then, all the sudden there was another man took over the phone from Ning, and he gently said to me: “Hi Fanny. My name is Chuck. Can I be your American Dad?” I was very surprised but appreciated. I said yes, and then he told me just to stay at where I was and don’t go outside. “The storm will pass soon, and you are safe as long as you just don’t go outside,” he said.
The next day, before I headed to class, they came to my apartment with a bag of supplies: pillows, blanket, snacks, and so on. My relationship with this American family has formally started. Later on, whenever there was a storm prediction, they would pick me up in ahead so that I could stay overnight in their house, and I had never been alone since.

It is Thanksgiving tonight in the US. I would like to thank my family and friends for always be there whenever I need you. Life is never easy, a lot of time it is full of challenges, but with your support and care, I have enough courage to face any kind of difficulty and move on. And when I feel like it is hopeless, you would be there to cheer me up and give me a big hug. I know that everyone must also have their own issues to deal with, and I appreciate you spending time to read my post and leave some words for me so that I can feel better. It really means a lot to me. Thank you my family and friends. I love you and happy Thanksgiving  🦃🍁❤️