天空

You have doubts about yourself. All the mean words tear your heart apart. You feel worthless and meaningless.
That’s normal.

I think I have anxiety issue and I need a professional help.
My work stress was too high. It gets to a point that I can break anytime.

If I want to choose a method to make you pay, the best one is to make you suffer the same pain that was on me, and make you feel extremely guilty and regret and hopeless.
Just wait and I will make it come true!

Sometimes when I think I have got everything under control, at the same moment bad things must happened for no reason.
Maybe I just don’t deserve to have a peaceful happy life!

5 new products development review meeting done tonight!!! I am proud of myself!
This month I have completed at least 10 new products review and it has become my new record!

真心覺得職場上的綠茶非常多！看似清新無害，實則勾心鬥角、手段卑劣！
無妨，事情最終都要回歸本質：complete the task/do the job.

Your family does not know how many difficulties and pressure you go through in your daily life or in your work.
And your work does not know the circumstances of your life and your home.
Your colleagues, your friends and loved ones will not understand the size of the new and old responsibilities that are on top of you.
And your partner is always expecting unconditional love and - support from you, he will not understand the amount of pressure you are under no matter how much you talk and explain.
In conclusion: no one feels for you except yourself. Nobody will understand what you are really going through and it is very likely that they will not value efforts.
Just keep going... Fight... take care of yourself

是的，是價值觀不一樣了。
青櫻還是當年的青櫻，只是弘曆再也不是那個少年郎了。

不過說實在的在急診等待真的度日如年，而且急診室的氛圍確實令人非常不安而且急躁。旁邊有人在吐、有人在哭、有人在呻吟，氣場確實很令人難受，加上冷氣真的爆冷，家屬也只有鐵摺椅能坐，還有病床只有薄被一條，眼見自己的家人那麼難過又寒冷，說真的家屬真的很容易爆氣，畢竟這社會上有修養的人其實沒那麼多。大約是冷漠的社會讓大家都保持距離、明哲保身，少了很多設身處地替人著想、將心比心的心態，就很容易擦槍走火了。
我上次在急診室等了一夜，真的非常痛苦難熬。即便是第一個小時急救時，我也是心急如焚而且微微發抖，加上因為疫情管制只有我自己在急診等候，真的度日如年。