目前分類：Thinking- 我思故我在 (27)
- Aug 10 Sat 2019 22:00
- Jun 28 Fri 2019 11:42
- Jun 14 Fri 2019 16:39
- Mar 13 Wed 2019 17:40
- Feb 21 Thu 2019 17:51
I am thankful for having a nice family, having people who care about me, having a wonderful husband, and having a variety of life experience.
I am thankful that life has made me kind but strong.
- Dec 27 Thu 2018 16:25
- Nov 12 Mon 2018 11:06
I have been very down recently. Too many things happened almost at the same time, and too many “coincidences” happened, which made me wonder if all these incidents were just a joke from “fate.” I started to think that maybe it’s all because of me. There’s no reason for me to believe that I deserve a peaceful life since I seemed to be the reason for my own distress. I started feeling pity for myself, and I looked for all kinds of excuses to blame for. I was so negative and hateful, and nothing seemed to be right or at least reasonable to me, nothing, at all. I hate myself, and I hate my life. I was like a beast looking for any possibility to hurt people, including me. I wanted someone to pay for my misery, and I wanted them to experience my pain. I felt that life was so not fair, and I wanted my “justice.” I was like a spoiled brat who thought I was a very important person and I deserve people’s respect. I “empowered” the dark side of me took over my mind, and all I could think of was to revenge and to prove that I could be somebody. I started showing my dark side of personality, and I was so angry most of the time. It feels like nothing can go right at this moment, and I am so alone.
After several days of “conversation” with myself, I started feeling calm. I have read so many articles and I decided to accept what happened. When life throws me a curve ball, I may not be able to catch it right away, but at least I can face it and figure out a better way to deal with the situation.
- Oct 31 Wed 2018 09:18
Recently I read an article about not to call your friends when you are upset or angry.
At first I was quite against what the author says, because I thought friends should be there for each other whenever they need you. Every time when I was upset I thought of calling (or texting) someone to tell them how bad the situation was. Sometimes I felt better after I let it all out. I thought this was a healthier way to deal with my bad emotion.
- Oct 15 Mon 2018 17:21
You asked me how my married life is, I don’t feel any different other than the spouse icon has been filled on my ID card. I was so afraid of failure again and I was afraid that he might be different after we got married.
But the truth proves that I was wrong. He is still the same man that always holds my hand wherever we go.
- Aug 09 Thu 2018 13:27
- Aug 02 Thu 2018 15:17
Sometimes I look at myself and think: “maybe I deserve to be alone (lonely) without any close friend.”
I have always wanted to have a sister, but that’s not gonna happen.
So I thought maybe I could have a BFF(best friend forever) instead.
- Dec 27 Wed 2017 07:57
I was so upset these days, especially yesterday some stupid things happened at work which was just overwhelming. I was angry, disappointed, and I hated everything, including this world. It felt like nothing can be right and I was living in a broken world.
I was crying and I really missed my friends. I felt so alone and I was fighting against this world by myself with no one standing by my side.
- Jul 02 Sat 2016 17:59
- Jun 12 Sun 2016 18:02
有一次我在美國用公共電話打回台灣，當時是用國際電話卡，可以講比較久一點。結果有位美國白人胖女人走過來，她也要用電話，站在我旁邊很不耐煩開始罵我，叫我去別的地方講(旁邊是賣場，裡面還有其他電話，她自己懶得走過去)，我不客氣用英文回罵，叫她自己去別的地方打電話。然後她開始罵我髒話，說我是「畢曲」，還叫我滾回自己的國家，說我不屬於這裡。(You bi**h! Go back to your country! You don't belong here) 當下我不甘示弱「畢曲」她回去，也叫她滾。最後她自討沒趣走了，她很驚訝我會跟她對罵。
- Apr 26 Sun 2015 13:12
- Feb 27 Fri 2015 15:16