今天是我的生日，非常非常不想面對的數字……再怎麼不想面對，事實還是來了。四十歲，沒房、沒車、沒子、工作也沒特別成就、銀行也沒幾位數。感覺怎麼跟10年前沒兩樣? 今天凌晨還被兩隻高唱求偶歌的壁虎吵醒，連生日都不讓我好睡。
It’s my birthday today. No matter how much I hate to face the age of 40, it still comes. Up till my birthday today, I still don’t have my own house, or my own car, or my own child. I don’t have special achievement on my job, nor do I have much in my bank account. I don’t feel much different within 10 years. Early in this morning when I was still asleep, two geckos were singing to each other for courtship on the ceiling of my bedroom. They just don’t want to let me sleep well even on my birthday!
還好，身邊有個無人能匹敵的隊友，再怎麼沒成就，也願意陪著我吃滷肉飯+豬血湯。
Luckily, I have a super duper husband who doesn’t care what so-called achievement but would take me out for my favorite fried noodles and blood-jelly soup.
還好，我這個愛碎碎念又搞威的個性，隨便寫的貼文還有少少的人願意看。
Luckily, there are still some people who would read my post even though it’s full of nonsense and complaints.
還好，不懂修飾又不會偽裝的個性，生活中還是有少少的人願意欣賞。
Luckily, there are still some friends who adore my personality even though I am not good at concealing or pretending.
年輕的時候總覺得生日是件大事，應該要好好慶祝；網路上一堆文章勸說著夫妻之間應該要有「儀式感」，各大小節日都應該要有儀式度過。但不知道從什麼開始，我比較看重的已經變成實質的感受：平常的相處、互相尊重、互相討論、互相體諒，只要這些都到位，生日當天只要帶我去吃平時最愛的食物就很滿足。(實在是娶到賺到！好處都被我隊友卯光了！)
When I was younger, I used to think that birthday is a big deal which deserves a big celebration. There are so many articles online stating how important it is to have the sense of ritual for a couple. But I couldn’t recall since when, I care more about usual life feelings. I care to have a normal relationship with tight connection, respect, lots of discussion, and understanding. As long as we can keep a good relationship going, it only takes a meal of my favorite food to celebrate my birthday. (I think this birthday wish is just too easy for my husband who is the luckiest man in the universe to marry me without costing too much!!!)
今年，我要認真期許自己：我希望每天寫一篇英文日記、朗讀一篇英文文章、希望修正自己的脾氣、希望越來越注重自己的健康。(英文越來越退步，這樣下去不行的。)
For my birthday expectation to myself: I expect myself to write an English journal everyday, to read an English article everyday, to amend my temper, and to work on my health. (My English is getting worse each day by lacking of practice.)
希望喜歡我的人繼續當我的朋友；希望不喜歡我的人離我遠一點；希望不討厭我的人維持現狀。對於人際關係，隨緣就好，不用強求。當然，希望我在乎的人通通陪我到老，健健康康煩惱越來越少。感謝大家的祝福喔！
I hope people who like me continuously be my friends, people who hate me stay away from me as far as possible, and people who think I am just OK may keep that way. I do not wish any more complications to my life regarding to friendships. However, I wish all the ones that I care about could stay close to me till the end of my last day, and I wish all of them healthy and happy with less and less troubles. Thank you all for your birthday blessing. Love you all!!!
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