天空

Just a thought suddenly across my mind.

What hurts me the most in my life?

My ex claimed that he never wanted to have a child. So I had never had a chance to be a mother. But right after we separated, not even a month, his gf was pregnant. After a while, they moved in together with 4 children in the house I bought (but then I sold it to him with unrealistic low price just so I can leave as fast as I could).

They sleep on the beds I bought, watch the TVs I bought, use the treadmill I bought, use the trailer I bought, look it to the window I bought, and enjoy the life I always wanted.

He perfectly stole the life I always wanted with another woman.

Totally hurts 1000+ times more than I can ever imagined.

Even though many people say not to look back and move on to my life, but every once in a while I would review my life and know that I have made the right choice at the end.

That was never a life suits me.

I deserve to be independent, and I deserve to be happy.

Now I am living happily in my own country with my people. We share the same culture, speak the same language, laugh at the same jokes, and eat the same food.

I am making more money in my country than in USA. People see my ability and know how much I am capable of.

I am more confident, and I am happier.

The suffering is a necessary for me to become who I am now.

“You might not know the reason for a lot of things now, but one day when you look back, you will understand.” Some words I read and can’t agree more.

Cheers life!